Finally. Woosh.

Today's Weight: 180.8lbs


Thank goodness.

Cleansing all the crap out of my system yesterday got rid of those nasty 2 lbs I had packed back on. All it took was willpower and healthy foods.
Speaking of healthy foods...

A little story from last night. This is going to show you just exactly how freaking addicted to food I am:

I did pretty okay with my portioning yesterday. I ran a 2.5 mile uphill run with JaNae and then stretched really well afterwards. I went to work and did just fine with some trail mix and water. When I got home though, I ate my small dinner portion and that's when the trouble started. I still felt hungry because i had eaten my food super fast (I only feel full when I eat slowly.) and it hadn't settled yet. So I walked to the cabinet, and casually pulled out a rice crispy treat and a handful or oreos. i seriously had the rice crispy up to my mouth when I realized what I was doing.

That's when the mind tricks started.

I kept telling myself I was so hungry, and a little snack wouldn't matter...or that if i didn't lose any weight that night I would make up for it in a day or two. These are the things that Ive been telling myself that have kept me fat for the past two years. Finally I had to make a conscience effort to put those treats down. lol...its funny now, but last night I was literally sad about it. I wanted those treats. But this morning my scale is thanking me for not eating them and look! i didn't starve to death.

The hardest part is JUST SAYING NO.

If you find yourself in a situation with fatty foods...its up to YOU to man up and not eat them. lol..we all know everyone gives in to temptation every now and then, and that's ok...but don't make it a habit. If you're out for fast food and have to choose between a cheeseburger or a salad, stop and physically force yourself to turn down the fat and to eat the salad. Its a tough decision at the time, but a few hours later you wont care how badly you wanted the burger AND you'll be proud of yourself. Its sooo hard, I know, but it can be done.

(im going to take pictures of our cabinets and stuff here so you can see what a struggle i have to deal with everyday. But honestly, I hate being fat more than I love eating food. FOOD IS JUST FUEL.)